New Year, new me, new life

Ok it's taken me a while to get back to my blog. Sometimes life can take on a life of it's own. But now it's a new year and it's time for a new me.

One thing I've learned over the last few months is to stop looking back. Many of my friends know what I've been going though for some time now. Every day I would push myself to keep going all the while I kept saying over and over I want my old life back. Without realizing it I was setting myself up for a sort of Ground Hog day.

My old life meant days of disappointment and hurt feelings. It was a period of when I let my fears and self doubt overrule my faith and limit my personal growth. I let the naysayers voices overpower the voices of my many supporters. In my old life most every thing I did I was successful at so when I had failures they stopped me from trying again.

Then I had an epiphany. It didn't come from some voice within me. I was watching a program and the man in the interview said the same thing all the time through his ordeal- I want my old life back. And that's exactly what he got. Then it dawned on me that it was time to stop looking back for my old life.

So with the new year it's time to look forward and just be me. It has been a long road to get to where I like myself when I look in the mirror and I'm not afraid to take risks. I owe it to myself to take the path laid out before me and not worry about what waits at the end. I know now I can always deviate if I find it isn't leading me to where I want to be. No matter what it will lead me to my new life.